glazed stare

For a breif moment we catch eachother's gaze.
I fear that your eyes will find their way inside my mind and see what I'm really worth.
They'll see my memories from the past 17 and a half years,
They'll see the secrets I've promised to never tell
and all the boys I've ever kissed, loved, and lied to.
They'll see the regrets that cross my mind every so often.
& I Fear that they too, will now cross your mind also.
I fear those eyes of yours will search every corner of my mind & see every thought i've ever thought up,
Everydream iIve ever dreamt,
& every wish thats never coming true.
I fear your fixated gaze will bring out all the supressed emotions that i've tried to forget.
Your eyes, they cause everything in my mind to swirl into a giant mess of emotions, feelings and mystery.
And all the while I'm to much of a wreak over your stare to try to look inside your mind to see what makes you tick,
& what makes you happy to live and love,
& to see what moments you charish,
hopefully a few dealing with me.
But no,
I'm to overcome with my own emotions to realize any of this.
The thought of the very escape of all that is me from just an extended action from the one whom I would like to share eveything with causes me to do what I am best at,
look away.

I'm sorry.
This is the truth.