Praedicare

praedicare is the latin word for preacher.
Thats what we are mainly focusing on tomorrow on the senior retreat and also to find out what gods plan is for us.
I don't need a god to tell me my plan. I make my own. No one else but me.

Time is ticking pretty much.
I'll give up eventually on everything.

I can complain about life all i want.
But thats what im going to be stuck with.
Complaining.

I got in a really bad mood today.
That probably happens about every 5 minutes.
I think of something that bothers me and SWITCH. anger/sad mood on.

remember that one day i came ot school and cried for about 2 hours straight and my friends all slipped me notes and hugged me and i tried really hard to stop looking like a fool but I just couldn't? And then i got my test in health and i just put down random shit and went to sleep. AND TO make matters worse i woke up and still had my test and everyone else had handed it in.
Well the weird thing that turned my day around was seeing "magical thinking" in a library book.
"magical thinking" thats what it is. It is pretty magical. That doesn't need to be written in a book though its pretty self explainatory.

I work a lot this week.
Im probably quiting soon.
I can't work 26 hours a week AND go to school on top of that.
Perhaps 2 years ago I could when I actually cared about my future and could multi-task. Not anymore.

[i hate when people stand over my shoulder when im on the computer..fucking retards]

i don't like sharing my adderall. Im sorry? I do it anyways because they are my best friends but i don't like it. Not one bit.

I'm a yellow person. I got that from the catcher in the rye [i think thats how its spelt and all that good stuff] I like it although it's a lot about sex. As if i don't get enough of that subject every 30 seconds. (I relate to time a lot..have you noticed that?) I like the book over all.

alaska has a higher recorded temp then hawaii. I don't find that amazing one bit. People make Alaska out to be some COLD ASS PLACE! i've never been there but from what i've read and heard it's actually pretty warm.
I would hate 6 months of darkness though.
I'd probably go insane and shoot myself.
No doubt on that one.

well i'm gone
Bye