Puppy Puppy...

"Puppy, Puppy, Please Step Out"
what the hell was up with that? I mean does it have any meaning to it what so ever? Or is it just something some little child came up with and it caught on?
oh well.

Also, Well christmas & new years. Not much to say. They were alright, room for improvement though. But i'll be greatful non-the-least.

I'm pretty happy.

I'm turning 18 in about 4 months. Is this something to be happy about? the last 4 or 5 birthdays of mine i've cried on. I've looked forward to my 16th birthday...nothing changed. I've looked forward to my 17th birthday... nothing changed. And now looking forward to my 18th birthday i don't know if anything withh change. I think that by turning 18 some magical fairy will swoop down apon me and make my whole entire life just one big happy fantisy land where there is so sadness and i am free from everyone but myself.
I doubt any fairy will come though...but it would be pretty fucking rad.
"Dude on my 18th birthday a fucking sparkley fairy visited me and she gave me everything i wanted. Now did a fairy come to you? NO!? i didn't think so...cause you suck at life" and i would finish that coversation off with a "I WIN!"

"I win" it's my new thing. well semi old by now. I say it a lot. i do that with phrases i guess. "typical" was the last one. Oh well... once again.

I'm glad the people in my life (friends and what not) are the ones i have now. I really am. I realized that they mean a lot to me in the end. And althouhg im not sure if i can rely on them to be there for me 24x7 i do know that from what they can give me.... im grateful for it.

Ever since i've been on this lamictal I've been a lot more "happy" with my life. I've given up being a whole bitch, for the time being. I don't even take my wellbutrin really.
In the end though... I still hate work.


well this is enough for now. I'll add more soon.
ta ta for now. (ttfn)