So, I've come to the conclusion....

I, Kaylan Rae, do in fact, most likely:
.cry more than anyone else

I think it's the truth. I pity myself too much. I think to much. I get to happy at times. I just overexagerate everything leeding me to cry. That's my philosophy.
I've very hidden about it mainly. I don't cry in front of others but leave me by my self for a good 30 minutes and the tears will roll.

I've also come to the conclusion that: I HATE ANGELS AND AIRWAVES!
all summer erika wouldn't let me listen to it. She had a reason. It was a good one. A really good reason. But i love the music, i love the lyrics and the melody and the rythm and just everything about that band... but i hate them at the same time.
so many memories

i don't think i like memories.
i seem to remember the sad ones more than the good ones, which can't be too healthy.
But i'm not mentally healthy. Nope.

I was walking down the hall today in school, thinking about nothing. I'm good at that.
I caught a smell.
-pot and good smelling cologne-... it smelt soooo GOOD.
it reminded me of something and then i wanted to run from the smell. RUN right down the hall, down the 3 flights of stairs, out the door and to my car, and not stop running until i was safety locked into my car.

I don't deal with things to well. My heart is MINE! only i can control it. And if it's fucked up, well, i just don't know how to fix it.

This week has just been weird.
I don't know why. I just know that i don't like it very much.
And i need to find a way to fix it or things wont turn out good.

I'm lost.
find me.

-Kaylan