catch me if you can

I despise work. I wonder that if i had a positive attitude towards work i might enjoy it more.
Doubt it. But oh well.

I've come up with my mental equation:
bipolar+OCD+ADD+multiple personalities+ manic depressive+hypocondria+ a few other acronyms=me!

In one of my classes for school I'm reading farenheit 451. Let me tell you I love it. With a passion, deep in my heart.
I have to will myself not to read ahead (reading ahead only leaves me bored in class)

I told someone I'd go to his homecoming.
I love someone.
The someone who asked me to his homecoming isn't the same someone i love.
I miss the one i love though. He told me a few days ago we would hang out. I left it up to him to make the plans. I'm done with the mom job. He's the older more saposivly responsible one. He can set up a date, if he tries i'm sure.

I think it's weird how you meet people. I think it's weird that we can form relationships, and miss and love people. What allows us to do that? How do relationships get so close? When is that precise moment you learn that you LOVE someone. That moment is pretty amazing yet I seem to lack being about to remember the exact time it happened. I know it happens, how and when did these feelings come about though? I want the answers that no one has.

Wican confuse me. I need to learn more about their 'religion' if thats what it is. or 'cult' or what ever they might be.

I hate fat ugly girls. They're a waste of flesh. Do i hate them or do i just feel so emensely bad for them that I hide me sympathy with hate?

I'm a complex person. I need to grab a hold of my thoughts and sort them out.

This choas I'm in is going no where.
Remember those times we kissed on the beach?
and remember that time you told me you loved me? ya, that time in the library.
I miss them.
I hate missing things.
I hate things...
pretty much
I hate
I hate myself
I hate myself for allowing myself to do the things i do, physically and mentally.

the end,
goodnight